It feels like I haven't spent time at home in a really long time.

I've been so busy lately, but I love it!

Monday night, Nathan and I drank because we both really wanted to get fucked up and had Tuesday off. I spent the night at his place because we were both pretty hammed and I had no way home. Yesterday I had a really sober day. It felt weird, but really good at the same time. We woke up and went to Timmies for coffee, but we forgot the parade was about to start and we had no way out of the area. So we stayed to watch, and actually really enjoyed ourselves. Then we went to McDonald's, and went for a walk on the path by the river in Preston. It was such a beautiful day. We went back to his place after that so he could change, and threw the football around in the park for a bit and sat on the swings. He dropped me off at Deb's after that and we walked down to Riverside to watch the fireworks. Her grandma picked us up after that and we went back to her place and ordered pizza, and watched Finding Nemo and Mean Girls. I had the best sleep I've had in days, it felt really good.

I really don't want to go back to work tomorrow. I'm enjoying summer too much!

I'm also finally going to the trailer this weekend. I haven't been in a month, I'm really excited!

For being fucking broke, this weekend actually turned out amazing.

Friday I went over to Nathan's and played poker with his folks.

Both him and Dustin ended up passing out though which kinda sucked.

So I just headed back to my place.

He felt really bad, so he took me out for breakfast the next day, and we ended up chilling for a bit after that.

Then last night, Deb and I journeyed to pick up, and then we waited for Scarlett at the mall.

We headed back to my place, and I ended up getting so fucked up that I couldn't comprehend anything. We walked back up to Coronation and drank, then we ended up going to some park that I forget the name of and just sat in the basketball court until like, 5 am.

I don't think I've ever been that mangled before. I loved the state of mind I was in, but I didn't at the same time. I guess it was just the come down, and the fucked up conversation we all had for like, hours on end. We ended up freezing our asses off, so we went back to Deb's place and just chilled there all day. Now I feel like I should be doing something, which I probably should. But I really don't want to do anything.

Last night, I pushed things way farther than I should have.

It was a bad experience that I plan on forgetting.

I'm actually really glad it didn't drive him away, though.

Oh well. Next time it will be a lot better. ;]

Went to East Side's with Nathan on Monday. Got coffee after, drove for a bit.

Last night I drank with Alissa, Kris and Katie under the overpass.

It was a fucking fun night. Alissa and Katie's boys came for a bit and chilled, then went home.

When we were out of booze, Alissa's mum drove us back to her place and we were screaming songs on the way. Since we started drinking early, everyone started to get tired early. So I just ended up taking a cab home.

This morning I woke up to my mom freaking out, because her car was stolen.

So now the cops are supposed to come over. Lovely.

I'm very content with my life right now.

Cole and I got into a bit of an argument on Monday, but it's a bit of a relief.

I've been taking her confusion and bullshit for far too long, and trying to make things work.

But now I see that our friendship was over a long time ago, I just didn't want to let go.

She was a negative part of my life, that I was trying to make a positive, but I realized that what happened is life. Friendships fall apart, people change. You have to deal with it and move on, even though you may not be happy with it. You have to be happy in the present if you want to stop dwelling on the past. I'm so done with the past. I'm a completely different person than I used to be, my whole life is completely different than it used to be. And I'm so satisfied with that. I realized that I'm finally more than comfortable in my own skin, and that's what is helping me focus on the things that make me truly happy, rather than wasting my time trying to change the negatives into positives. :]

Moving on from that..

After having a really bad day on Monday, Nathan and I went to Crazy Bill's.

We ended up going on a drive, and ended up at the cutoff to Hamilton and Toronto.

We turned around, and then went to the arcade at the mall.

When they closed, we went to the Tim Horon's by my house and sat in the car and talked for hours, about warped shit. But after that conversation, I saw him completely different.

After he dropped me off, I didn't want to sleep. So I met Deb and we went and got Tim Horton's and waited to get ready for work, and school.

That night, she came over and we blazed a couple joints.

I was tripping balls, that's all I can say.

Last night, Nathan and I hung out again. We went to Wendy's because there wasn't anything open by the time he was done work. We got really bored, so we went back to his place and he got his weed and a couple of those baby whiskey bottles. We went to the park, and had this conversation with some random drunk guy. It was mildly entertaining.

Now, I'm completely broke, so it's going to be a shitty weekend.